On Sunday evening Sven and I went to bed really early, I couldn't sleep so I surfed the web in bed and read my book. At around 11:45 I started to get some really bad cramps and took some strong Nurophen, by 12:00am they were getting stronger and more painful, almost like I would imagine contractions feel like. I got up and went to my yoga room (which was to be the baby's room) to try and breath it away, this contraction type pain got stronger, lasting for longer and got more and more intense.
After about an hour of breathing and moaning, I tried to get up to the bathroom and a flood of blood came rushing out...it was like someone had turned a tap on full blast. I kind of collapsed and had to call for Sven as I could not stand.
Sven woke up with a fright and had to carry me to the bathroom, where I proceeded to vomit and bleed heavily. My darling husband made me some sugar water as I was shaking from shock, he got me dressed and drove me to A & E.
Once at A&E we got shown to a little cubicle where I got changed into a gown, they took blood, checked blood pressure and heart rate, asked questions and eventually examined me internally.
The doctor said that there was a massive clot and a lot of blood around my cervix so she couldn't tell if my cervix was open or closed. She later tried to dislodge it herself, but left it as she said it could make me more sick.
They gave me a massive dose of pain relief and put me on a drip, while we waited for my blood work to come back. By this time the cramping was getting more bearable, but still so very painful.
My blood work came back ok, haemoglobin level normal, heart rate and blood pressure fine (so long as I didn't stand up). The doctor gave me two options of staying in over night and maybe having a D&C in the morning or going home and continuing with the managed miscarriage.
Sven and I chatted and we decided to go home, I could always come back if need be. I was given some painkillers and we were told to watch out for dizziness, severe cramping or abdominal pains, and fever. She also said to stay in bed for 2 days.
Once the drip had finished, I was checked over one last time and allowed home.
Sven and I got home around 4:30am, I got changed into fresh PJs and got into bed.
Today is my second day in Bed, the cramps are still around and come every few minutes and last about a minute or more. The pain killers help a little and have allowed me to sleep at night. The bleeding is still heavy, although I haven't passed any clots yet. I still feel weak physically and emotionally but I am feeling better.
If it wasn't for my amazing husband Sven, and the support of my family and a few friends, I would not be able to cope - so thank you.
Sven has truly been amazing, he deserves the husband of the year award!
Sven, thank you. I love you!
Tuesday 9 October 2007
Thursday 4 October 2007
A sad day
Yesterday morning I had some bleeding, not a lot but enough to be concerned about. I also had some pain, so decided to phone my midwife who suggested I phone the early pregnancy unit. I was booked in for a scan.
After a 3 hour wait, Sven and I walked into the little room. Because I am 11 weeks 5 days she decided to do a abdominal scan, after a few minutes she said that she was not encouraged by what she saw and needed to do an internal scan.
After what felt like an age, the doctor said that she was still not encouraged, but needed to confirm with a colleague before continuing. Another doctor came in and they discussed their diagnosis...by their faces I knew for sure something was terribly wrong.
My baby was measuring 9 weeks and had no heart beat, it died at 9 weeks.
Sven and I are distraught.....I can't begin to describe how I feel, all I can say is that I am numb and terribly, terribly sad. I have always wanted to have a baby and when we fell pregnant, I was just so happy.
I know that everything happens for a reason, and that this soul was not meant to be. So close yet so far.....we were 2 days from 12 weeks. It happens to so many women, and I take comfort in the fact that nature knows best...it just hurts!
Sven and I will go to the hospital this morning (Thursday 4th Oct) to discuss what to do next. I started bleeding a bit more heavily last night, so things are progressing naturally. It is my hope that I can continue in this way.
This is the scan pic of our little one...looks so perfect......
We will try again.
After a 3 hour wait, Sven and I walked into the little room. Because I am 11 weeks 5 days she decided to do a abdominal scan, after a few minutes she said that she was not encouraged by what she saw and needed to do an internal scan.
After what felt like an age, the doctor said that she was still not encouraged, but needed to confirm with a colleague before continuing. Another doctor came in and they discussed their diagnosis...by their faces I knew for sure something was terribly wrong.
My baby was measuring 9 weeks and had no heart beat, it died at 9 weeks.
Sven and I are distraught.....I can't begin to describe how I feel, all I can say is that I am numb and terribly, terribly sad. I have always wanted to have a baby and when we fell pregnant, I was just so happy.
I know that everything happens for a reason, and that this soul was not meant to be. So close yet so far.....we were 2 days from 12 weeks. It happens to so many women, and I take comfort in the fact that nature knows best...it just hurts!
Sven and I will go to the hospital this morning (Thursday 4th Oct) to discuss what to do next. I started bleeding a bit more heavily last night, so things are progressing naturally. It is my hope that I can continue in this way.
This is the scan pic of our little one...looks so perfect......
We will try again.
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